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spiritual enrichment days was fantissimo. it wasn't really a time of revelation for me, but there was a buttload of confirmation going down. i receive it.

highlights:

• We hung out with God on friday and it was powerful, but God told me to just be. To just be in him. Don't force it to come, just be. (and like a lost lover I ran to him and he embraced me with joy. He asks, "Can I be your first love?")
• Our Lover groans for us to come back to Him. Longing and desire surge through His heart. Beating. Oh can we be found? Can this lost lover, this prostitute, come back to her first Love? My soul weeps, "Come back."
• Child! Child! How come you run around so free? So careless in the breezzzee... Who has released you? How can this be?
  You are free. You are my child. There's a wind over you. A wind. Child. Live by it. Become like a child in my spirit. Dance like a child once again.
• I had quite a lovely assortment of words spoken to/over me that all blessed me immensely, but i won't get into them now. They were all very exciting and encouraging and dead on though.

A Multitude of Embarassing Moments:

• embarassing moment number one definitely being me messing up royaly in an intense worship moment while singing "accapela" with pedro and having everyone stop and stare in dead silence. But God told me to embrace my public mistakes as humility. oh, and i tripped over a mike cord the night before. HOORAH HUMILITY!
• OH! funny story made short: we almost peed our pants with excitment when saw from the Henday what we thought was a building burning to the ground downtown. In haste the four "firechasers" hopped in my car and drove only to find after much adventure that is was a really bright, dissappointing oil burning thingy. That was mildly embarrassing b/c we missed the food and told the whole world (including my parents and the bostin pizza ppl) that our city was on fire and we were the lucky ones who are going to be within feet from it.
• crying so much all my makeup turned my face a lovely shade of black, as well as a delightful black makeup trail all the way down my neck.

(due to techinical errors, now i'm done)

PS: there was a lot, a lot more to this post but i spell checked and my popup blocker blocked it and then refreshed the page and i lost everything else and i'm way way way too tired to write it again. way... au revoir